WheresMySecondChance

I saw you But now I don't see you anymore The time was running out Our time together was final And most of my life you were done You needed to live through others Like through me And even when you did so You never gave up You were always ready for a challenge till the end You were always talking before thinking Always telling the truth And that was not always for the best But we loved you anyway We saw you Your bubbling energy Your straightforwardness Your lust for life I miss you You were a fighter A one of a kind One that shouldn´t have left But time passes And we don't control what happens We just know it will

"I want it to end. The suffering, the pain, the weariness, just everything. I want to stop feeling like a knife has been dug into my chest, and is being twisted with every insult, being pushed in deeper with every insecurity and doubt. I want to stop crying. Just, for one day, to not have to sit with tears pouring down my cheeks, with my arms wrapped round myself, slowly rocking. I want to stop panicking. To stop feeling like the oxygen has left the room, leaving me gasping for breath and lifeless. Like I'm drowning on dry land, my throat closes over, and my thoughts go at a million miles an hour. Worries and obsessions fire through my bra